No.

God said no.

I want to say that I'm glad that He answered and that I know that this must be best, but it doesn't feel that way.  I feel abandoned, forgotten.  I know William does even more so.

I know that God's ways are not our ways, that He has a purpose in saying no, that this path is what He has for us.  All things things are true, but they don't stop the hurt that my heart feels right now.

Maybe another door will open, maybe not.  Either way, I'm praying for the strength to walk in faith even when my heart feels broken.