Dear William,
It's hard to believe that we've been married almost a year. I've heard that the first year is the hardest and I hope that's the truth because this year has been rough. We've been hit so many times with so many things that, to be honest, sometimes I'm surprised we're still together. Don't get me wrong - I'm GLAD we're still together! It's just been hard - for both of us.
Love is not what I thought it would be. It's a lot more work and a lot less romance. It's a lot of give and take. It's a vulnerability that I don't think either of us was ready for. To quote, dcTalk, "Love is a verb."
I do love you. It's a choice that I make, even when I don't want to love you. I'm not the wife I want to be and I'm certainly not the wife you want me to be. We both came into this with expectations for ourselves and each other, none of which have been completely realistic.
I wish we were in a different place than this, but I have hope that God can change our circumstances, our marriage, our lives. He brings beauty from ashes, raises the dead and parts the Red Sea. He can make something beautiful out of our marriage. God can change us. He can change our marriage. He can make all things new.
May we start over anew as we move beyond the first year of our marriage. May God do a mighty work in us and may His name alone be praised!
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